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Ryusei Sakuta ([personal profile] asteroidbelt) wrote in [community profile] rabbithatch2013-02-22 09:47 pm

no spy music allowed in rabbi thatch | ryusei sakuta and kengo utahoshi

It was quiet when Ryusei walked into Rabbit Hatch. Good, there wasn't anyone in here. He made his way quickly to the control room and pulled out Meteor Switch; he needed to do this quickly before anyone came in. Tachibana's support was all very well and good, but Meteor's status was always either dictated to him or sent in a box. Nothing like the real-time updates Rabbit Hatch could do, and if Ryusei wanted to get a full picture of Meteor's capabilities, he needed to do a little sneaky diagnostic right now, right here.

Don't look down on me.

Tachibana couldn't ever again insinuate that Ryusei was at fault for weaknesses in battle. He had received Meteor Storm, but he didn't want to have to ask for another upgrade, even if he was confident that Tachibana would give it to him. He was grateful to Tachibana for doing so. But on the other hand, Tachibana had taken advantage of his situation—of Jirou's situation—to manipulate Ryusei. Oh yes, he remembered it, even if he was loathe to mention it to Tachibana. Just in case.

Quickly. He tapped his fingers on the table as Meteor Switch was scanned. After a harrowing moment, the results finally came up on the screen. Ryusei leaned forward.
mathemagician: (But why did you touch him?)

[personal profile] mathemagician 2013-02-23 05:33 am (UTC)(link)
The sincere offer of help made Kengo smile, the expression crossing his face before he even realized what he was doing. Maybe it was due to how tired he was, or the fact that he'd come to trust the other so much. Everyone seemed to gradually work their way closer to him. First, it had been Yuki, then Gentarou, now Ryusei... It wasn't a bad feeling at all to have that sort of tie to other people. Part of him wondered why he fought it so much, but his pride rarely allowed him to lower his guard.

"I want to be here in case there are any problems. It's not that I don't trust you..." Kengo tilted his head as if to stretch it, closing his eyes again for a moment. Should he admit how uncomfortable he felt entrusting the tactical side of Fourze to someone else? Sakuta had good ideas and instincts -- as good as his own -- but it felt as though surrendering that role would be giving up everything.

Turning his body a bit, Kengo grabbed for one of the pillows from the table, standing up and starting over to one of the chairs. "I don't trust him to stay out of trouble."
mathemagician: (You mess with friendship.)

[personal profile] mathemagician 2013-02-23 03:56 pm (UTC)(link)
The fixation with wanting to help Gentarou was less about the other being incapable (though Kengo still tried to convince himself otherwise sometimes) and more about his own paranoia surrounding the use of the system. Even after so many months, he felt overprotective of his father's work and the fact that he should be as close as possible to it at all times. It was his mission, his burden, even though there were others around him now to help take the weight off of his shoulders. Along with that, it was a way for Kengo to feel closer to the father he never knew. When he didn't allow himself to get close to too many people, working on the system had always been something that made him... happy.

"You won't bother me." On a stroke of luck for Ryusei, it seemed Kengo was intent on moving the chair around on his own. He grabbed the chair and turned it towards the wall, taking a seat and leaning back in it. Tossing the pillow under his head, he turned his back to Ryusei and made a soft, frustrated noise. It felt weird to trust someone this much. He wasn't even sure if he would actually fall asleep or not, but the stress his body had been under was starting to pile up.

Crossing his arms in front of his chest, Kengo turned his head a bit to look behind him. "If it worries you too much, you can just close the door to the control room. ... I just need a few minutes and then I can help with whatever you're working on." A few minutes was more like fifteen or so, if he would actually fall asleep. Aside from that, he was sure that Gentarou's arrival would certainly wake him up, regardless of how deep his sleep might be.
mathemagician: (My body shakes.)

[personal profile] mathemagician 2013-02-23 08:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Though Kengo had expected to either not fall asleep or to only sleep for a few minutes, the complete opposite had happened. As soon as Kengo had resumed his position in the chair, head pressed back against the pillow and his body facing towards the wall, he'd fallen asleep. While sleeping, his breath was uneven, but his body showed no signs of reacting to it otherwise. It was likely to be another aspect of his condition, which still had no name or reason as far as the club was concerned.

For the next hour, Kengo slept, barely moving aside from his quiet, irregular breathing. Rolling onto his back, Kengo gasped in a deep breath and put one hand up to his head, staring up at the ceiling. His head was already spinning, the boy making a soft noise in the back of his throat. Waking up tended to feel like this -- as though his entire body had to work to rearrange itself. The dizzy spell went away only after a few minutes of calm breathing. When he moved to sit up, he rested his arms on his legs and looked around the room, his hair rather ruffled.

It didn't look like anyone had come back yet. He wasn't sure if he should worry about it or not.
mathemagician: (Beg until your tears dry up.)

[personal profile] mathemagician 2013-02-24 04:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Kengo's reaction to what Ryusei had said was rather slow. He turned his head towards the control room door, letting out a breath. Had Sakuta really been spending all of that time working? It felt as though he'd slept a lot longer than expected and a quick glance at his watch confirmed his initial suspicion. There was a small pang of guilt that he'd left the other to work alone the entire time he'd been sleeping. Now he felt as though he needed to make up for his lack of effort, though Kengo knew he should have been more focused on his health than switch development.

Brushing off the question of whether he was feeling better or not (he wasn't), Kengo moved to stand up, using one hand to flatten his hair down once more. "You should take a break for awhile. I can take over for you. ... or I can get something for you, if you want." Walking around would probably be better for him at this point, but he didn't want Sakuta to feel as though he was taking advantage of him.
mathemagician: (But why did you touch him?)

[personal profile] mathemagician 2013-02-24 08:55 pm (UTC)(link)
While Ryusei seemed to be cheerful, even if it was just a ruse, his attitude made Kengo more uncomfortable. His sincere, polite attitude seemed to drop suddenly, as though he were reverting back to the cold and serious self he usually had around the rest of the club members. He sighed and turned his gaze away, turning to head in to the control room.

"That's fine. Take your time." It didn't matter how well Ryusei was trying to hide what he was feeling -- at the very least, Kengo could tell he was upset. He just assumed it was for an entirely different reason. Without saying anything else, Kengo took a seat in the control room and started reviewing what Ryusei had been working on, trying to catch up with the other's progress.
mathemagician: (Get up as much as I've suffered.)

[personal profile] mathemagician 2013-02-24 09:45 pm (UTC)(link)
As soon as Ryusei had left, Kengo had moved his chair back enough to rest his forehead against the table, arms resting on the surface. ... how stupid. He really should have been more careful. Next time, he would have to set an alarm to make sure he didn't spend so much time focusing on himself. It was a strange thing to feel compelled to help out everyone else, now that they had forced themselves into their lives, but it had become an annoying part of his conscience to show concern for them. It wasn't just the insecurity that the rest of the KRC was replacing him (even if they said and proved they weren't), he couldn't shake the feeling that he was becoming more and more useless. As the person who should have felt the most responsible for the operation, it looked bad to be contributing so little.

By the time Ryusei returned, Kengo had caught up to Ryusei's progress, running system checks and double-checking everything the other boy had done while he'd been asleep. It was absurdly close to being complete, but Kengo was known to double and triple check everything before even allowing it to be tested. It was part of his concern for not wanting to give Gentarou a switch that could possibly backfire.

He barely raised his head when he heard Ryusei's voice, though when his mind finally processed that the other had returned, he snapped shut a notebook that he'd had open in front of him while waiting for the program to finish running. It wouldn't do any good to show that data to anyone else. Resting his arm on top of it, he went back to focusing his attention on the switch.

"I'm fine with anything." His words were just as dismissive as they always were whenever someone asked him about his preferences for something. It seemed as though Kengo only ever gave his opinion when it came to work.
mathemagician: (Shut up.)

[personal profile] mathemagician 2013-02-24 10:11 pm (UTC)(link)
Kengo didn't even look up from his work, though when he noticed Ryusei wasn't coming in to the control room, he flipped it back open and scratched down a few more things with a pencil. He couldn't push the uncomfortable feeling aside. It always seemed to end up like this when he didn't want to talk about how he was feeling. Burying his thoughts and feelings was what had gotten him in trouble with Ryusei and Gentarou in the first place, back when they had worked on developing the magnet switches. It never got any easier...

"I already had my break." Not that it should have counted, considering his condition and how little he'd been sleeping with the school work Kengo had been working on. "I'll eat whatever you don't want once I'm done."
mathemagician: (Beg until your tears dry up.)

[personal profile] mathemagician 2013-02-24 10:52 pm (UTC)(link)
As soon as Kengo felt the hands on his shoulders, his face flushed red before he could figure out exactly what was going on. His body had reacted before his mind had caught up, Ryusei managing to get him halfway out the control room door before he did anything else. Raising his hands up, Kengo grabbed at Ryusei's wrists and fought to keep himself from stumbling, the expression on his face a mixture of being embarrassed and offended.

"S-Sakuta..." Taking that route of action seemed to be effective, though. When forced into a situation by someone he cared about, Kengo had a harder time talking himself out of it. It didn't even occur to him at the moment that he'd left his notebook in the control room, still open to the notes he'd been taking.
mathemagician: (I will see the end of this.)

[personal profile] mathemagician 2013-02-25 12:05 am (UTC)(link)
Within the notebook were a variety of notes, particularly on the Fourze system and different things Kengo had been thinking about as far as reviewing future and current designs, as well as ways to better implement the switches they had already developed. There were even tactical notes, but it was all theory -- if they fought a Zodiart with certain characteristics, what were the best combination of abilities they could test out against it? Kengo knew that thinking such complicated things wouldn't do any real good unless it was implemented on the field, but the system and the mission were always at the front of his mind. He wrote everything down primarily as a way of clearing his head to focus on other things.

With this particular page, however, very little of what was written had to do with the Fourze system. There were notes about the circle module switches and Meteor's system -- Elek, Fire, and lesser things like Rocket and Chain Array. He had theorized that being able to use Elek only left Meteor compatible with that aspect of Fourze's system -- but could Fourze use Meteor, and how similar were the bases? It had to have some tie to his father, that system. He just didn't know how.

"I know..." Now Kengo looked even more embarrassed, tilting his head down and actually managing a smile with how awkward he felt. He still hadn't let go of the other just yet. "I'm sorry... for upsetting you earlier. I don't want you to have to work alone either." Apologizing was certainly not something Kengo did easily and it was obvious from the look on his face how uncomfortable he was. But the fact that he was putting the effort forward to say it meant a lot.
mathemagician: (You messed with the wrong person.)

[personal profile] mathemagician 2013-02-25 12:30 am (UTC)(link)
Kengo cleared his throat during the awkward pause, moving to sit down a few feet from Ryusei at the table. He accepted the food, giving a small nod of his head in thanks without verbally expressing it. Resting his arms on the table, he picked up one of the onigiri and picked at the plastic around it. He hadn't eaten since before he'd left for school. It was true that he needed it more than he wanted to admit, but sometimes he became too focused on his work to think about eating. His mind and body always seemed to focus completely on the task at hand and he had to remind himself to eat -- or have someone else do the reminding for him.

"You left pretty quickly earlier. I guess I'm just paranoid. ... it's really hard to figure people out. I'm still not used to it yet and I know I'm usually harsh and demanding towards everyone. I was worried I'd crossed a line with you." Kengo absently picked at the plastic, keeping his head down. "I don't really spend time with anyone in the club outside of being with the group as a whole."

Realizing that he was starting to open up a bit too much, Kengo shifted uncomfortably, fighting the urge to mutter an apology. Instead, he brought the food up to his mouth and took a careful bite, still seeming as though he was focusing on his own thoughts more than anything else.
mathemagician: (I don't even want to hear it.)

[personal profile] mathemagician 2013-02-25 03:10 am (UTC)(link)
While Kengo could easily say that he and Yuki were friends and that him and Gentarou were friends as well, he didn't think that they hung out regularly, at least with either pair on individual terms. It was always work and always a group effort. Yuki had just been the first person to find him and attach to him. Gentarou worked the same way, but there was never really a time where he'd sat down with either of them individually and had a 'friend' chat or anything like that.

Kengo acknowledged the club and his ties to everyone, but it still felt... off. It was as though there was an invisible wall between him and other people where he couldn't quite understand them. Friendship and ties seemed to come so easily to Yuki and Gentarou... Why couldn't it be that easy for him? What was so hard to understand?

"Making you feel like I'm expecting you to pick up my slack, rather than having an equal standing. My condition shouldn't give me an excuse to do less work." It felt so very uncomfortable to talk about things like this, but every time he tried to stop, he felt as though he had to keep explaining himself. Sakuta had never made it difficult to like him, but with how closely they worked together, Kengo felt he needed to have a stronger relationship with him. It would make sense for them to trust each other as much as Gentarou and Kengo trusted each other.

His reason for wanting to avoid coming into the middle room was purely to avoid further issues. Kengo was aware that his attitude when it came to being hurt by anything was to lash out at others and draw away from them.
mathemagician: (Shut up.)

[personal profile] mathemagician 2013-02-25 02:29 pm (UTC)(link)
"Whatever we do, I'm fine as long as it's equal or the extra weight falls on me. I appreciate everything you've done so far." With the way Ryusei was acting, it was making Kengo feel more and more guilty that he'd potentially upset the other. Out of anyone in the club, it seemed Ryusei was the one who would be the most sensitive to anything that was said to him. Kengo felt Ryusei's personality was too kind to be subjected to his harsh personality. And the other had helped him out a lot...

It wasn't that Gentarou wasn't kind, but his forceful personality had rubbed Kengo the wrong way from their first encounter. Ryusei was really the complete opposite, or at least it seemed that way most of the time. At least the other was getting better about coming out of his shell. Kengo could relate to that...

Kengo put his elbows on the table as he took another bite of his onigiri, seeming a bit more content now that he was eating. "Anyway, I think it should be done soon at this rate. There isn't much left to do."

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