forcing interaction one way or another!

[mathemagician]

[awkward shifting everywhere, why am i wearing this thing where people can see me and why are you letting people into my home. i told you i don't want to talk to anyone.]

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[asteroidbelt]

[no. no this can't be happening OPEN THE @^%*$#*%$ DOOR]

[turning around, tentatively] It's locked.

[although now that i've gotten a better look at you— why are you wearing that]

[mathemagician]

[oh come on it's not like my feelings are any better on the situation.

and hey no one asked you for your opinion on my clothing choices when i'm by myself, shut up.]

I should have expected as much.

[just going to go sit on the edge of my bed since it's a small apartment and i don't want you sitting here.]

[asteroidbelt]

Expected what?

[gonna stay right here by the door in case pity is taken on me and it opens at some point]

[mathemagician]

[yeah let me know how it goes getting pity from your mun.]

Being stuck in here.

[asteroidbelt]

[can a miracle happen if i wish for it hard enough]

. . .

[mathemagician]

[not likely.]

Sakuta...

[asteroidbelt]

[why do i dread anything you might be about to say]

. . .

[mathemagician]

[because i have a bad history of it now?]

What I said yesterday... I ..

[wait no actually i don't really want to apologize. how do i do this.]

[asteroidbelt]

[clawing at a door with my nails kinda hurts. gonna continue standing by this door anyway]

. . .

[mathemagician]

I really didn't want things to turn out this way.

[well at least it sounds nice.]

[asteroidbelt]

[. . . that's what i said after jirou relapsed.]

[mumble] It's... It's minor.

[mathemagician]

I shouldn't have said all of that. ... or acted the way I did.

[or hugged you because i still feel awkward about that and i'm trying to forget it even though it felt really nice despite the situation.

also, no. can't tell you what i want yet.]

[asteroidbelt]

[and yet, it was what you wanted to do.]

... Forget it.

[mathemagician]

. . .

[look whose turn it is to be silent. just going to lay down and roll over and face the wall. maybe you can get out now that i sort-of apologized.]

[asteroidbelt]

[nope]

. . .

[gonna sit down on the floor right here]

[mathemagician]

[damn

well, i don't have anything else to say to you right now. i have enough trouble struggling to be polite.]

[asteroidbelt]

[it's not like i can just forget what happened

especially when i'm stuck here

but i... never did say it, did i?]

I'm sorry. For everything.

[mathemagician]

[actually, no. you never said it.

have a muttered response.]

Did you ever mean any of it? The way you were around us?

[asteroidbelt]

... Which parts?

[mathemagician]

[are you really going to make me say this.]

Caring about any of us. Helping with our goal. ... that time you patched things up with me and Kisaragi. Any of the times you acted like you had fun. Was all of that a lie to get what you wanted?

[totally not the most bitter tone i've ever used.]

[asteroidbelt]

It was real. [... eventually]

[painful breath. what is it that you want to hear? if i explain myself, would you accuse me of lying?] I— I realized it, when Cancer....

[mathemagician]

Are you telling the truth?

[you could just lie again, but...]

[asteroidbelt]

... [it's not like i expect you to trust me, but

ow.]

Yes.

[mathemagician]

[i don't know if i feel better or not now. wait. ... a little better. sort of. maybe. i think.]

I haven't forgiven you yet... [mutter] ... but I'm working on it.

[asteroidbelt]

. . .