歌星 賢吾 | Kengo Utahoshi (
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forcing interaction one way or another!
[awkward shifting everywhere, why am i wearing this thing where people can see me and why are you letting people into my home. i told you i don't want to talk to anyone.]
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Sakuta...
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. . .
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What I said yesterday... I ..
[wait no actually i don't really want to apologize. how do i do this.]
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. . .
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[well at least it sounds nice.]
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[mumble] It's... It's minor.
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[or hugged you because i still feel awkward about that and i'm trying to forget it even though it felt really nice despite the situation.
also, no. can't tell you what i want yet.]
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... Forget it.
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[look whose turn it is to be silent. just going to lay down and roll over and face the wall. maybe you can get out now that i sort-of apologized.]
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. . .
[gonna sit down on the floor right here]
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well, i don't have anything else to say to you right now. i have enough trouble struggling to be polite.]
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especially when i'm stuck here
but i... never did say it, did i?]
I'm sorry. For everything.
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have a muttered response.]
Did you ever mean any of it? The way you were around us?
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Caring about any of us. Helping with our goal. ... that time you patched things up with me and Kisaragi. Any of the times you acted like you had fun. Was all of that a lie to get what you wanted?
[totally not the most bitter tone i've ever used.]
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[painful breath. what is it that you want to hear? if i explain myself, would you accuse me of lying?] I— I realized it, when Cancer....
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[you could just lie again, but...]
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ow.]
Yes.
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I haven't forgiven you yet... [mutter] ... but I'm working on it.
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... it's what Kisaragi would want. Even if I'm in a place where I've lost all of my hope... all of my ability to continue my mission... he wouldn't want me to hate you. What you did...
[picking at the sheets on my bed since i'm so nervous and trying to distract myself.]
To save someone important to me, I would do everything I could.
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[... It all comes back to Gentarou, doesn't it? It always does.] [mumble] And if... that wasn't what Gentarou would have wanted...?
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I don't want to think about it.
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... I-I see. [I can't... overcome that barrier between us after all.]
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